Passing away

I'm weary of the changes in your voice
Was that a glint of sarcasm I tasted on my eardrum
Is that narcisstic tone your only safe one
Did I just make you happy
Or was that your way of saying bye?
Can I deduce from your lips if you are sane
Or must I pry open the lid on your story
Delve deeper into your imagination
Till the point I can no longer worry
Wether or not you are okay or fine
Should I invoke a loving tone
To hear if you could love me back

I wish I could open my eyes
But I am as blind as the dead

I can read this through my fingers
Can feel your sweet goodbyes
I can touch your cheek
Or play with your hair
And I can feel our hands intertwine
You playfully tell me this is the last time I'll see you
And perhaps you faded away with a smile
Today this blind man shall one last time
Sleep by your side
I can hear your breathing cutting out
And I can feel your heart quitting its beats
I wish I could have seen you once
But that might have led to perpetual greed

I shall speak at your funeral
An unprepared speech
I know you'd have found it funny
The man who's blind
Reaching for his crib
And in this end of you I beseech
Smile one last time for me
even though I can't see
I hope our farewell has brightened your passing
That you went over happily
Now this is the temporarel end
Of you and me
I hope Ill find you there one day
Waiting with open eyes
just for me